Sitting here, in the quiet of Sunday in early October, my daughter is sleeping and Daniel and my son are away on a camping trip with 15 boys and some other dads. I hear the bubbling water from the fountain steps from my window next to my desk. At fifty years of age, I feel like I have lived several lives. Each life, knowing it was me, but somehow I feel like an outer body experience looking down on what I used to be, the memories like flashing pictures in a music video.
I got lost for a while in the superficial stuff that we are all victims of to some degree. Demanding more things, bigger house, paying a price later with heavy debt. Eight years ago my husband and I decided that to help the family, I should go back to work. Since I was still quite spoiled, I wanted work that would allow me my freedom, to be able volunteer at the school, have lunch with my husband. I found a position worked flexible hours, but tough, sales is sales. Oh, let me not forget I had bosses, expectations of production, corporate meetings, rejection, all this for a commission only position. I was good as my last sale, hero for an hour. I was a junkie hooked on just one more job. I was my employers dream. I worked like I was the best thing that happened to them. I became a prima donna, I cut back my schedule, ( too be with my kids) I was that good!
The economy tanked, our home expenses were way to high, with the few leads I got, I couldn't close them. I started owing my company money. My husbands business was struggling. We had a difficult time excepting the change, we kept saying this will get better in a couple of months, we just have to ride this through.
Our current plan was faulted, we had to create inflows, we checked out business ideas. We have never been afraid of work. We started one MLM firm, beautiful marketing, loved our sponsor and his family. Problem just one product, and we had to stock it to get a better price. We had to hit up all our friends and families, nice product but not everyone sees the value in a bottle of juice for $40. We loved the idea, but still searching. We found another company, kind of a profit sharing business model, nifty business model consuming products we all use, but they were 2nd and 3rd tier companies that were trying other means to increase their market share. We had to make a list of people we knew, then go to hotels for meetings, have in-homes, every week, away from my kids.
The goal to be with my kids was drifting away again.
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