Confession No. 19: Fear is a bad habit!

Fear is something we have learned from childhood, I remember going through a stage when I thought the boogie man was coming and I would die, I kept a nightlight on as a young child. Then I feared my parents would die and we would have no one to take care of us. Years later, my brothers played tricks on me scaring me in the dark basement or with a broom figure outside my window. Then middle school engulfed me and I feared acceptance and struggled with body image, this transmuted into high school when I still had braces and my nickname was "spider" because I was all arms and legs. I know this is not life changing stuff, it is actually quite mundane. You see that is exactly what haunts me to this day. I fear the average, being mediocre. Fear is a bad habit that will limit you, stifle you which makes my biggest fear a reality. Whenever fear has gotten into my subconscious and taken a bit of real estate has been periods of my life when I no longer moved forward, sometimes even moved backwards. But nothing is more unsettling to me than side steps. We have always been risk takers, that is life's adrenaline. I can handle steps back as long as I can see a leap forward in the horizon. A good exercise when any fear attempts to invade, think about if this was your last days on earth, would you take the same action? Think about a time in your life when you had nothing, and nothing to lose. Act, with prudence, but act soon fear will be an old habit...one that you leaped past!